Hypocrite

13/07/2009
You do all of this shit to try and make yourself someone that you're not, so you can be seen as how you want to be seen, your perception of 'cool' and not yourself. No offence but its fucking disgusting.
To be honest I thought if anything you'd be so much smarter than me, because man fucking hurt and desperation is awesome, you hear me rave on all the time over how I just want to die, haven't you ever been able to figure out why?
I shoot and everytime I do, when I let go, the happiest part of me wants to leave, leave the rest of me to die.. and I don't argue with myself anymore - you stopped so did I.
One of these days when I do just let it eat me I hope you have your needle or your fucking razor blade to comfort you.
And don't be naive.

04/08/2009
Its almost as if I can't live without you're constant updates. When you are living, I am living. But when I am unaware, Im just dead.
I somehow can't manage to understand why you have done what you have done.